rain falling outside
my feelings dropped on the ground
someone yelling at me
my heart was broken inside
my eyes watering up
I tell myself “Don’t cry”
I don’t want to be seen as weak
I prefer to cry just by myself
but the pain gets bigger
it’s like something is closing my throat
I can’t speak
I can’t even make sounds
I want to ask for help
but my body shuts down
I need to tell someone
I am not feeling alright
but my mind is telling my body
“it’s better this way
don’t talk, don’t cry
just live, like you’re dead inside
maybe this way the voices will stop
your heart will restart
you will cry and
write something so you can put it into words
all the pain you felt before”
but my mind can’t understand the way my heart is feeling
my mind can’t understand how much
I need to speak up and tell me what I need to say
so my mind is basically killing me slowly
and doesn’t even realize
someday, maybe the rain will stop
the sun will shine
and I’ll be able to finally reset myself
and not let the anxiety make the call
maybe that day I will be free
and just speak when I feel the need to
I believe this day will come
I see the rainbow showing
maybe this is arriving
I just need to fight for myself
I just need to fight to stay alive until the sun gets here
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