Do you remember the times when we were younger? Those were wild, as much as they could be. We played, we laughed, we cried of the uncorresponded love, we slept through the night.
Now I cry for fun and play because I have to. Now I laugh to seem normal because the reality is that I can't sleep through the night. I am scared of closing my eyes. I can barely fall asleep. I am too tired of all of this. I speak so much and I write so much about not going down and that's the thing I keep doing.
But is there someone reaching for me? I know it is, I don't want to let them down because of all this. I don't want to let them go as others did. I need them, I even need the ones that are gone now. And I keep digging for something I won't find, something I can't even remember what it is, something that won't make me happy.
Now I cry for fun and play because I have to. Now I laugh to seem normal because the reality is that I can't sleep through the night. I am scared of closing my eyes. I can barely fall asleep. I am too tired of all of this. I speak so much and I write so much about not going down and that's the thing I keep doing.
But is there someone reaching for me? I know it is, I don't want to let them down because of all this. I don't want to let them go as others did. I need them, I even need the ones that are gone now. And I keep digging for something I won't find, something I can't even remember what it is, something that won't make me happy.
I have so much to tell you.
Since you left me with my heartbroken, with all its pieces on the ground, with no way to be heald, with no way to put it back as it was, I have changed. During the time that has past, I tried to raise my head, do something with all my broken parts and start a new life without you, I found the meaning of life and the meaning of a relationship.
Since you left me with my heartbroken, with all its pieces on the ground, with no way to be heald, with no way to put it back as it was, I have changed. During the time that has past, I tried to raise my head, do something with all my broken parts and start a new life without you, I found the meaning of life and the meaning of a relationship.
So, I want to tell you, you that left me, you that put me behind your back, you that left me on the floor, I hope you find someone that can put you back on your knees when you finally find out what you did and understand the person and what you left behind, just like I found after you left me with my broken heart.
Don't come to look for me when you find yourself with no-one because I won't be somewhere to be found, I will be out of your sight. So, when you find out what you did, please don't go looking for someone else, try to take some time to you, to think, to understand what happened and what you did.
I'm just writing to say goodbye, or at least try. Because, I still love you, but I have found someone else. So I decided to finally make the decision my heart has been waiting for so, so long. Because my heart has been hurt for so long and it misses the actual feeling of being love.
So, because I deserve better than you. Because I deserve more than this.
And some will say it's bullshit. Some will say I'll get through - I know that's for sure. But meanwhile, who takes care of me. Who worries about me? Meanwhile, who do I have by my side? Who can I trust my life? I know the truth. You're no good for me. You're no good even for yourself.
Because, I have found someone amazing, and this person makes me happy! And I can't allow myself to still have feelings for someone that is no good for me. I can't suffer more for something I know deep down won't be happening anytime soon, at least. And this person will finally give me what I have been waiting for so long, what my heart has been asking for: some love, a new direction, a different type of relationship.
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