i had a dream that wasn't mine

I'm not writing about dreams that we have at night while sleeping, about those for life. The ones you must desire for. The ones you fight for. The ones that make you happy and give you joy!

 I realized some time ago that I was living a dream that wasn't mine. I had it, but I didn't think about it as much as I should have because I didn't realize earlier that it isn't mine. So I feel like I've been living in a lie for the past couple months, it's really depressing how could I forget my own dream and be living someone else's dream. It's like reality has come to the place just now and my heart is in pieces. And I ask myself how could I be dumb enough to be blind enough to don't remember my own life!

So now I'm trying to figure out and I have a dream that is mine and I completely know it's mine. But now things are different, I don't know what to do as I knew with someone else's dream and it's not even that, it's just weird. I feel like I don't belong where I am. I know that when I finally feel myself again and find my place again. And I feel like I lost part of my life because I was living someone else's life.

 When we are kids and someone asks us what is your dream job, every kid says something like supermen, pop start, fireman or doctor without knowing everything they will get through to get that dream. And when they start realizing that, by the age of 13 and 14, a lot of teenagers start giving about on them selfs or just forget about it over the years, because someone laughs at them when they said it or because they didn't have the real support.