about that one boy

When I feel down and sad about life, he is one of the things that comes to my mind because of how much I was happier with him and how sad I was when he said no.

In those days that I'm not okay, I think about everything that could have to happen if things went differently and where we could be.

Being with him made me happier and I felt the love in a different way that I never felt before.

Being with him was different and continues to be even if I'm not with him.

This boy made me smile even after he said no, he makes me laugh and my head reminds me of how much I cried because of him. Life laughs at me because I'm laughing over something that someone that made me cry so much said.
He made me happier even when I was completely destroyed. He helps me to be a better person. And I fight myself about talking to him, I try so much to send him a message or a text, Or even talk to him in person when we are together, But I can't, I'm too weak, I'm too shy, I'm too insecure, Especially about him.