When I am going crazy

 

When I am going crazy

You are the one I look to

You are the one where I find shelter

You are the one that gives me the best advice

When I am going crazy

I do not want something from this world

I want something far beyond what it can give me

I want something far better than anything it can possibly offer me

I want to be in the arms of my Father, the one that never gives up on me

And, this world may think I am crazy for believing in a God I can not see, the answer I have for you is I prefer being crazy and feeling whole and loved than living like thousands searching for something my entire life for something that is right in front of me and I can not believe.

Yes, for those who ask, I have had my doubts, but I’ve had the grace of God for a long time since long before my birthday, before He united my parents, because He thought of me just as He thought of you, a long time ago, even before the fundations of Earth. I have the blessing of being born going to church with my parents as Christians. But my life, even in God’s hands, never was golden and shiny, not even Jesus’s life was.

The truth is not all days I have the most significant energy, the bursts of joy and happiness. There are days when the energy, the joy and the happiness seem to vanish. 

Following Jesus doesn’t mean a perfect life, He’s help during the crisis and during the good. A help that never fails, it’s always present even when I don’t really feel it. It’s to know that I’m loved even when I don’t feel it, it’s to know I have someone even when I don’t want anyone around me. It’s to know there is someone bigger and better to take care of me, hold me and help me in everything, even in every little step I take.

Living with Jesus is not all joy. Living with Jesus is living fully, highs and lows, good and bad - but a life with meaning, a bigger purpose that with each day with God, each day takes me closer to Him and His wonderful plans, each day I know I’m not alone.